Confidence and Dimmed Light
and a little bit about Billie Eillish
Hi everyone,
Today's Inner Gloss dive is a little rewrite of a thought I had a few weeks ago. It's about confidence, self-belief, and the struggle to maintain your light in a world that sometimes tries to dim it.
Growing up extremely introverted made it hard for me to gain confidence and self-belief. It was something I had to teach myself over time. However, with the growth of my confidence, I noticed how more and more people wanted to reduce it, which honestly can lead to more insecurity.
So, Picture this: You're finally owning your unique talent, your magnetic charm, your undeniable 'it' factor. Suddenly, the energy around you shifts. People start acting differently, viewing you through a new, often unflattering lens. Why? Because your light threatens those who've had to hustle hard for every ounce of attention they get.
There will be times when you have a talent or a thing, and because you have a light or are different, people will begin to act differently towards you or see you differently. That energy mostly comes from a place of others having to do the most to get people to like them, and when they see others who are naturally magnetic and charismatic and refuse to let them in their bubble, they reject that person and convince everyone else to reject that person as well.
The best thing to do is to remind yourself that you are still worthy. Don't let others cause you to dim yourself. I allowed that to happen to me, and I rejected it so much that, at some point, I closed myself off from people and everyone who I didn't feel I could trust. I had noticed that I would consistently allow people to dictate how I behave and see myself. This resulted in me closing off, shifting different friend groups, and distancing myself consistently. That needed to stop, and I needed to get myself to the point where I began to stand my ground and show people who I was instead of moving and shying away from it. It still is a work in progress.Â
Now, to transition to someone who I think emulates so much confidence, self-love, and trust in herself: Billie Eilish. I know she's admired and loved and has thousands of fans, but when people talk about IT girls, I've always felt that they tend to leave her out. They talk about her music and how talented she is, but let's give credit where credit is due. Billie grew up in the spotlight and has grown into someone so admirable, standing for her beliefs and feeling comfortable doing what she wants to do.
I love her new album - it explores so many topics about young adulthood and being a woman in a very nuanced way that I don't think people focus on enough. It's catchy and fun without being gimmicky and overbearing. And I just loveee CHIHIIRO and LUNCH. Like, CHIHIRO is like a culmination of all my immature, toxic relationships all wrapped into one, and the music video just matched the feeling. I love playing it in bed in the middle of the night when I’m all showered and have done my entire overpriced body care routine.
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